This Place

Wake up to feelings of guilt
Can't wash away all the filth
Nightmare still lingering,
I'm still figuring
How to get out of this place.

Memories I'm trying to face
A screaming past gives chase
It's catching up, the margins thinning
Near the end and I'm not winning.

Wanting so badly to hold on
Confidence in myself is all gone.
Praying to the Gods up above,
Asking the people I love,
To help me get out of this place.

Bleeding to ease the pain,
Hurting to hold on to sane
Knife in hand,
I have a plan
I'm gonna get out of this place.

Ghosts of the past break free
The prey that they seek is me.
Want to press stop, go back to the beginning
Working hard but patience thinning

Tired of effort it fails.
Darkness inside me prevails.
A fool to think I could change
Always trapped in this cage
Here in this hopeless place.

Wanting to close my eyes
Finding peace in my own demise
Little love tasted
Potential is wasted
But at least I'm out of this place

Come and get me, I care no longer
Urges inside continue to get stronger
Acting out my mind is spinning
I have no tears in fact I'm grinning.