My Story:first time around

*very long*

I am in love with Brian Ellis.
and this is no mistaken love.
I sit and listen to Lost in You
I hide my scars with a little white glove.

It started off seemingly long ago
I fell for him the day I was tripped
I was preoccupied liking his best friend
but he had a girl, who unlike me, was ripped.

Bobby walked around with others all day
though he was the one I wanted to be with
Brian and me were together and he was cool
but if asked how I felt I would've pleaded the fifth.

So I realized that with Bobby
things could never really work out
I got a boyfriend I liked named Ar lend,
but with that there lie some doubt.

Brian and I started talking more
and he showered me with affection
sending me poems and telling me about his love
and telling me that I was perfection.

He wanted me to break up with Ar lend
and I thought it was better too.
Mandi broke up with him for me (bad, I know)
and then came like the stampede at the zoo.

Ashly had assured him I would say yes
because he had been scared to ask
Then he wrapped his arms around me and asked me out
I said yes, happiness was no task.

A week and a half of total bliss
I was lost in his sweet ecstasy
Ask my friends, I was in a complete trance
because we were a ‘we!'

Now I don't know what my problem was
something about growing mature
I didn't think I could find my life's love at 14
I didn't believe love like this could endure.

Then came the horrible night
That I shall always deeply regret.
I cheated on my baby
but that's not the end yet.

We had been at the foot ball game
and were supposed to hang out afterwards
His mom had said no but he left that part out
I hate how things work in thirds.

He was going to go with us anyway
but Mandi and I had walked off
Because he couldn't find us he went home
and Mandi said I should be pissed off.

Chris had nothing to do that night,
and he had just lost his first “real girl”
so he was rebounding and I was there
called Brian and told him “I'm with your girl”

We eventually went back to Mandi's house,
and She and Jake left Chris and I alone,
Luckily Mandi's mom had come,
I was lucky more than I had known.

So I felt completely terrible,
and couldn't suppress my feeling of guilt.
Mandi said it was Brian's fault he wasn't there
That was when we started to wilt.

She convinced me to break up with him
but partially because I said it's what I wanted
I had liked Chris since that summer
and now I was being confronted.

But I was just a rebound
an awful little joke
Chris only wanted a playmate to f u c k
and if he could've I would be broke.

For weeks he was heart-broken,
I never told him what I had done,
until I realized none of it was my fault,
I wanted to take it back a ton.

Brian forgave me once I told him,
and said that he still cared
I would've gone for him again like I was thinking
but truth is I was scared.

It was a few more weeks before I got my courage
to hint at wanting a second chance
He said he was the type that might give it
I saw happiness only at first glance.

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