My Story:second time around

*read part 1 first!*

Brian got a girlfriend, Rachael
and at first I didn't know
we flirted a lot and everything
Then he showed me her picture and I knew I should go.

I tried to forget but he still flirted,
In choir all we could do was stare,
his friends yelled at me, everything was my fault,
the thought of them stopping me was too much to bear.

So I flirted even more because I hoped
that Brian would fall for me again,
Bobby said he had wanted me all along
I prayed he still did, amen.

So one day in choir we were flirting around
and I decided to take his keys
He asked “what will it take to get them back”
then he kissed me and I was at ease.

Everything was spinning
and I know my smile was huge
I say how truly happy he looked
For once I didn't feel like a scrooge!

This was our first kiss,
and the sweetest one I'd had,
I'm all for stuff “in the moment”
and this moment left me completely glad.

Little did I know
this wouldn't be the last,
I thought the kiss was for pity,
but his feelings had never passed.

So we flirted around some more
I was so blessed that we didn't act different,
One day he didn't work at three, I asked him to take me home
He didn't mind, so the rules I bent.

Twenty questions when I got home
From my dads ‘ why ' s and my moms ‘will you go out ' s
I thought we would so I talked to them,
I guess there's one thing I had forgotten about.

The next few weeks were like a gold dipped rose,
beautiful and so, so sweet
Then rumors flew and things turned black
then Rachael said I would get beat.

Bobby, had liked me the past few weeks
so he decided to giver her my screen name
I talked to her and said things I shouldn't have
She said she would break up with him, and I was to blame.

I sent him a million ‘ sorry ' s
and Brian said that he forgave me,
then got pissed at Bobby for it all,
I thought things would get better, I would wait and see.

I didn't want her to hurt him,
because I knew for her he did care,
She didn't break up with him for one reason,
and that sucked because I didn't want to share.

Brian told Rachael that I had kissed him,
and that he was not to blame,
when she asked me about it I shut up and agreed,
hoping that he felt shame.

So now she is looking, gonna beat me up,
and I tell everyone I don't care
I will rise and be even stronger
She won't be able to leave a big enough tear.

Her beating me up won't hurt
The fact that they're together rips my heart
I could've moved on and seen this coming,
Should have known it was crazy from the start.

Rachael and Brian have been together 2 months now,
what happened between Brian and I only made them stronger,
They planned to celebrate their 2 month today,
He finally got to screw her without waiting any longer.

I will rise eventually,
I just wish I knew what he was thinking,
I want to know if he still cares for me at all,
Only the answer will stop me from sinking.

I am in love with Brian Ellis.
and this is no mistaken love.
I sit and listen to Lost in You
I hide my scars with a little white glove.

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