Just Because

I don't know what I'm writing anymore.
This pen in my hand has a life of its own,
Taking over every word concealed within my heart.
There are so many things I want to say,
So many things I want to do,
But I try to do what is best for both you and I.
I believe it's time to finally stop and let my tears flow,
I've been hurting so much, but the pain just won't show.
I fake a smile and pretend every thing's fine.
Though I know in the end, things are far from perfect.
This poem I'm writing isn't really a poem.
It's more of a confession to the one
I've been trying not to hurt,
But whom has hurt me the most.
Yes you! The one I loved.
I hate myself for being so weak,
For letting you break me.
I must seem really pathetic to you
And the pain I'm feeling now makes you feel like;
I NEED YOU.
I hate to say it, but it's true.
Ever since we've gone our separate ways,
My world has changed and all this change...
Tears me apart.
But what can I do?
You chose her, didn't you?
I guess I should accept the fact that now you're gone.
I just had to let my pain flow through this pen
I just had to cry out loud...
Just Because.