Are you still proud to be my sister?

You told me how damn proud you were,
How proud you were of your little sister,
I had just turned 6 but you said already my light shone,
Mummy had named me Jessica but you called me Cj, Crystal Jr

I remember the days when you did my hair,
The days we would laugh for hours over nothing,
Do you remember the times you did my make-up?
And on my 8th birthday dressing up as princesses?

Daddy had said there was no need to dress up,
For we were already beautiful angels,
We just giggled and you had added,
But even angels fall sometimes, princesses dont

Do you remember that sad day?
It was your 14th, when daddy left forever,
He had left after that big fight between him and mummy
I was only 9 but mummy blamed it all on me.

Do you remember when mummy found Jeff?
And when they married, how happy they looked,
And then as I lives finally got back together again
Mummy and Jeff were killed on their honeymoon

You were 19when it had happened,
I was just 14 and you had a house,
So I went to live with you,
I liked it there; it was like a big sleepover.

There has been so much that has gone wrong
You had told me on the day of their funeral,
You then added but you stayed strong
Im so very proud of you Cj

I remember when you went through a rough patch,
And then found out you were 2 months pregnant
You had no idea who the father was
And you were so scarred, but we stuck together

A year has been and gone since then,
I sit alone, hiding from the world,
Remembering all our times together as tears fall,
Its been a few months since you little Anna died.

Now Im truly alone in this world of hate,
Not a shoulder left to cry on, no one at all,
Being only 16 I was sent to a foster home,
I hated it so I ran hopping no one would follow

If they had of they would have found me dead,
With a slit across the throat, I fell,
Crying in pain, I say no longer can I coupe,
Pined to my dress was a note made out to you.

Dear Crystal,
you once told me how proud you were. now that the blood has been split are you still proud? I'm sorry but even angels fall sometimes. Signed Jessica