Deception

What does it mean when you can't sleep at night,

nothing even hurts, but nothings really right.

you battle through each day with no end in sight

and you act like you don't feel a thing.

you lie to yourself, you lie to your friends

you want to walk away as the player that wins

but you're losing and it's right underneath your skin

and you can't seem to stop the sting

you have to pick up the pieces and try to walk away whole

after giving someone else most of your soul

(i even saw our future together getting old)

and you "pretended" that you saw it too

I am not the reason we made it this far

i AM NOT the reason i will have these scars

it was YOU WHO was in control of the "car"

now i am left with fake love for YOU?

what was the point for such a charade?

i can't believe i bought all the games that you played.

from the start i Knew i should not have stayed,

but you said that you loved me too.

well i might walk away more broken than before

but you will play with my heart no more

and i won't get "even" just to settle the score

because it is me who has really won

you have taught me a thing or two about life

i have grown up because of you and your wife

and although too much in this was sacrificed

I NEVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOU AGAIN!