I'm not worth your tears

It breaks my heart to see you
shed the many tears you cried.
To see the pain and heartache i caused,
tore me apart inside.

Please don't cry for me anymore,
for I'm not worth the tears.
I wish I was strong enough to leave,
and face my very own fears.

Standing there with you that night,
I hated myself even more.
What kind of a friend am I,
to put you through the pain you endured.

If I truly cared for you,
I would leave and walk away.
Disappear quietly from your life,
right now, on this very day.

But by my side I hope you'll stay,
for deep down I'm scared and alone.
Afraid to fight my battles,
and face the world head on.