I Need the Razor

The peace i found today
Has been destroyed once more
I gazed into your eyes
To find you've closed the door

And the craving came again
As if i needed it for air
For only an ounce of sanity
I needed the razor there

The room i transformed
That i had hated before
Now matched me in every way
From depression to w h o r e

But i knew the truth
I had let myself be alone
No matter how i try to hide
This has become my darkened home

If only i was truly abandoned
Instead of all these people who pretend
All the knives ready to stab me
And not a single caring friend

Oh the horror of my life
I can not begin to explain
How i need that razor
I need it to stay sane

The alcohols pure irony
I can forget all by myself
What i want is to remember
To get away from this place

God i don't want to die
I just want to find peace
I need the razor, I need it!
If my pain is to ever cease

I'm tired, so damn tired
Of losing all I've ever held dear
As the blood drips down my arm
A voice whisper, "Don't worry I'll always be here"