Inside of Me

Young girl, older than 12
Living in this murderous hell
Loosing contact with all my friends
On my friends I used to depend
Now I�m dying on the inside
Crying on the out
When someone says no
I do more then just pout
I tear stuff apart
Just like in the past
But in this poem I question again,
How long will this last?
Being hurt and let down all the time
I feel worthless like a dime
I feel as though people love me
And
Some I love back
Others I like but not love in fact
And
You can not debate
I never call myself fake
I am feeling like a piece of cake
People take advantage of me like cake
And now I wish I was a so I could flyaway
And
Never come back
But where would I go seriously.
In my other poems I ask why I am so sad
But all that does is make me mad
Because I can�t figure it out
Only a few people know what I am all about
They know I get real upset
And
They know I tear apart the house
And more
Yet people still like me or do they
They know I ran away
And
I curse out my parents
This may be wrong
Yet I still do it
Help me
How long will this last
How long?
Will it be as long as in the past?
I have everybody I need to help me through this
But I refuse the help
I don�t know why
I guess I�m not ready t o let anyone inside of me.
I don�t want anyone in my heart
I have all of these answers in me heart and soul
What I don�t know is simply
My emotions control
I know it seems like I do
You don�t know what I go through
Yet maybe you do
Why can�t I just trust you?