Suicide isn't attention seeking

by emmajaynexo   Sep 6, 2007

Staring out of my window
Your picture in my hand
Deep cuts upon my wrists
No one ever understands

I would do anything to be your everything
But you don't know i exist
Thats why i place all my feelings
upon my wrists

I see your face everywhere i go
Yet you don't seem to know how i feel
How is that so?
Please love me before its too late...

He walks down the street hand in hand with that girl
My heart breaks in two
Why does all my sadness
always revolve around you

So i run up my stairs
and close my door
Find my blade
try to hurt no more

I pick up the blade
Run it across my skin
All the pain and sadness
pours out from within
I'm lay there shaking
muttering grace
"Please let him cry for me
Like i have done many times for him
Please make his heart break
when the light in my life goes dim
Make his world fall apart
When he finds out its him that broke my heart
Make him wish for me to be his girl
his one true love, his everything, his world"
Letting go of the blade
Tears fall to the ground
Blood pouring out
Not making a sound
My head falls back
My pulse it stopped
My time was over
Tick Tock Tick Tock

Three hours later theirs a knock on my door
My mother rushes in and I'm their on the floor
Blood everywhere
with your picture in my hand
Next to me was a note
Now will anyone understand?

Dear my finder,
As you can see
I'm lying on the floor with cuts all over me
Its hard to try and explain
my feelings deep inside
so i express it anyway i could
But cuts are hard to hide
You see i killed myself
to make him notice me
No one knows how much i love him
Not even me
He doesn't seem to care though
As he walks hand in hand with her
I hope he finally realizes how much i do love him
look at my cuts please and finally see
who it is who actually killed me ...

Upon her arm was her one and only
The name written in blood
Everyone thinks suicide is Attention seeking
But Me ... I died for love.


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Latest Comments

  • 13 years ago

    by maryann

    You know it takes alota guts for sum1 to pik up a blade n cut demslvs ivee been hurt b4 n ive cried to a point wer i cldnt cry no moreee thought of hurtin myself so many timess ending my time wid my own hands but i cldnt do it i just took sumfin 2 make me sleep so yeah im stil here but lol i dnt noe how people can just watch demslvs bleed like wow
    great poem btw:)

  • 13 years ago

    by JEFF

    Deep pain and feelings, great write. 5/5

  • 13 years ago

    by TwistedAngel xx

    wicked poem
    so full of emotion and really made me feel
    you're doing an awesome job!
    Be proud


  • 13 years ago

    by sexyCheckers

    Nice poem; heaps relatable to heaps of people on this site; i like how you share this account with your friend, itd be nice to share my account with one of my friends... bbutttt i dont think theyd be too understanding lol anywaaays good poem, 5/5

  • 14 years ago

    by TillyMariex

    Wow i kno how you feel
    great poem <3