What's in a name?

Lauren
That's her given name but her alias is Lola.
Lola's everything you could want:
intelligent, confident, outgoing, and independent.
But Lauren's slightly unsure, insecure, needy and reclusive.
Lola loves her many friends: Dillon, Brittney Elliott, Lionel, Brittany, and more,
Lauren is unsure who she could possibly trust and depend on.
While in disguise, Lola's so happy, excited, peppy, and loving.
But deep inside anger's hidden, she feels spiteful, hateful, depressed, self hating.
These two girls seem to be opposite, yet share similar interests:
music, reading, art, dancing, singing..
But only Lola seems to ever enjoy these things.
Lola, she's fearless, she knows who and what she'll become, she's a place in this world.
Lauren though, her fears know no limits:
of love, of life, religion, fate, friends, decisions.
Proud is Lola, of Key Club, helping others, academics, and her personality.
But Lauren feels only shame, for those horrid deeds she has done.
Guilty, she's guilty; her guilt tells her she needs to be locked up.
Wishful, wishful thinking, Lola is kind.
Wishing only for others to find:
success, happiness, love and peace.
But Lauren is selfish, wanting others to fall below, for her to succeed.
Both girls conflicting within the same body, which is shown more, which will shine through?
Who has this girl of two become?
Which is one false?
Who is she really?
I guess only her last name is real..
Crandall

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This poem was for an english assignment.. which was suppossed to be in a much stricter format, and in turn because i strayed so far i ended up penalized slightly.