What have i done?

He doesn't know how to smile
holding things inside
his eyes felt dry
and he can't even cry
no one to let loose with
no one to love him to care about him
oh! how he longed to take it all out
still he know not why?
his eyes felt dry
and he cant even cry
his soul wandering aimlessly inside
howling with pain it felt in its spine
his heart pounding so hard
could swear people can here it even so far
he said
if he beleived in God
will God send someone to love him?
and if he beleived in love
will love send someone to save him?
his hopeless pale eyes
now adjusted to the gloom
asked an innocent question
what have i done?
he wanted to scream, to shout, to shriek
but what surprised him he didn't understand
his eyes were still dry
and he just cant cry!