Betrayal

Stuck between loneliness and betrayal
a choice must be made for my sake i have to find that holy grail
an answer must be found for the sake of my heart
i ask myself which means more but the answer pierces me like a dart
fast and deadly will the consequences be paid
my LIFE, MY LOVE, MY family put in an array
the choice i will make may be the beginning of a new day
happiness and secrets is the price i pay
betrayal and guilt locked in my heart i also say
to be lonely and unhappy is another choice i once made
to return to that situation some what seems insane
despair and a hope is all i have so i must pray
death and suffering no man can escape
but it seems now i have to burn one of them and put there ashes in a bay
do i live a lie to keep the peace or do i live to tell the truth but be dismayed