Endless Emotions.

Alone in my bed I silently cry.
My knees to my chest, tears fall down my legs.
My Ipod is on full blast..
I can not hear a thing except this sad song reminding me I am still alive.
Memories play in my mind.
I take another look at the clock,
Time is passing slowly..tick..tick..
Seconds;
Minutes;
Hours.
I am living in your letters, hoping to find a secret meaning.
But I never do.
If only the things you wrote then were true now.
I wish on every 11:11, every shooting star.
But I am afraid you are not coming back.
I wear your shirt; My tears are now embedded into every thread.
It still holds your scent..the one that makes my heart skip a beat.
The one that always took away my fears when you held me in your arms.
You now hold her, I long for you to be mine.
All the lights are off in my house, most of the world is now asleep.
But I lay awake with my pen in my hand.
My mind soon takes control freeing the trapped emotions I hold inside.
If you only knew...
I am begging you to look deeper..beyond my pretty face.
Into a world unknown to others;
Me trapped in a web of emotions, struggling to be free.
You should be charged with murder, for your love is slowly killing me.
My grasp on this pillow is frightening.
Roads go on forever. Never do they end.
Where will I end up?

[Geeze. Lol. This was an amazing write for myself. It is really long but wow. Lol. I hope you enjoy]