Through all the pain....

10/4/07

being with you is the most awkward thing
i cant look into your eyes
for i break down
cause deep within i see my lies
if only you knew
all the heartbreak it would cause
i cant bare to tell you
for i know I'm wrong
you gave me your heart
i got scared and didn't know what to do
so i lay it down to only let it fall apart
i cant bare to even say i love you without a small tear
for Ive only put myself to shame
its so hard to even stand here
its hard to hear your name
it hard to see your face
I'm so sorry

10/12/07
........
i look at you
i see all the pain i would cause
its scary cause id be lost without you
I'm sitting here thinking about the pain Ive put you through
but you don't even know its there
but baby i know it is
and now its like looking into your eyes another man sits there

10/20/07
........
I'm sorry for all of the pain
and all the struggle Ive put your through
baby baby there is no doubt

i never meant to do this
but i really do love you
i just made a MISTAKE...
a few at that
but i promise it wont happen again
no need to even worry about that
...............

10/22/07

i told you the lie that would kill us all
you broke down
but i cached you as you did fall
you pushed away like an angry beast
i cried
as you felt despair
i sayed I'm sorry"
and you looked right through me as if i wasn't even there
i knew what i did was wrong
it was uncontrollable
i knew it all along.....
i know i deserve to rot and depress
but I'm really sorry

.....this is my confession