Here I Stand

Curled up here alone in my cold dark room,
My mind begins to wonder.
It's a place I hate to go, it's a place I hate to be.
But there's nothing I can do as these things I begin to ponder.

Why has my life turned out this way?
Why is it the way it is?
Am I to blame for the way things have become?
I wish I could live in ignorant bliss.

I wish I could be happy,
I wish I could smile.
But the pain takes over,
And none of it really seems worthwhile.

Maybe I'm naive, Maybe I expect too much,
All I ever wanted was for you to love me and hold me tight.
And tell me that everything was going to be alright.

But I've never felt your love,
And deep down I know I never will.
But a stubborn streak inside me,
Refuses to give up and lie still.

So here I stand and here I'll stay.
Hoping and praying that one day,
Those very word to me you'll say.
I love you both with all my heart.
And I hope that one day you too,
will start.