My paradise fades away as the walls close in on me.
Harder it becomes for me to breathe.
The light dims as I'm enveloped in the sins of my corrupt mind.
I have nothing left to feel but unease.
Paradise, once a step away, became unreachable.
My hopes and dreams left with you.
We've lost touch and connection was gone.
I was alone and felt blue.
I had nothing to do and nothing to think about.
You left my mind messed up and clouded.
Pressure was closing in and I was losing my mind.
I had to know if the frustration I felt was real.
Again I plunged into the depths of loss and grief.
Gone...
I had given up on everything.
The walls had closed in on me.
When I tried escaping it just led to more misery.
All was lost after a happy life,
Impossibilities happened that veered my sight.
Distraction was in every corner of my mind.
I couldn't shake this sad feeling.
I couldn't let it go and scream.
I struggled to breathe but before I knew it...
I was gone...
When I thought all hope was lost...
When nothing seemed to be going right...
When all I've done and regretted came back...
When the things I cared for seemed to disappear...
I woke up.
I remembered you were there.
I remembered you were a friend.
The person I could talk to,
The only one that understood.
The one that was with me to bring me up,
I had forgotten that you were there:
Forgotten your laughter
Forgotten your smile
Forgotten you.
Slowly everything returns to me.
My prized memories come back.
My life moved on again.
The pain I felt slowly disappeared.
The sun shone again...
Everything was back to the way I wanted it to be.
I have you to thank for it.
You make my paradise...
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wow, i miss writing poems like this.. during this time, i was depressed and looked only to love to help me out of all the hell i was going through at that point.. since i hadn't posted this poem before, i thought about sharing it, since i had just found my old journal.. hope you enjoyed it. ^_^
