Here I lay...

Here i lay in bed,
resting peacefully,
with this gun to my head,
my heart is on the trigger,
don't break it or I'll wind up dead.

or is that what you really want?
what you've planned all along?
reach into my chest,
as if you don't know right from wrong.

suffocating me with your lies,
gasping for air and a bright blue sky,
only to breathe in toxic gas,
wondering how my life will last.

digging my nails into my eyes,
your voice echoes in my ears,
constantly as the days go by.

what else is there to live for?
i just don't care anymore,
what is the point of living,
when this life of yours is just ignored?

here i lay in this grave of fears,
ended my life,
stopped my own blood shed and tears.
pondering the wasted time,
i wasted all these years.