It Will All Be Ok

What is there left within our world
When all we do is change?
How can we stay close and together,
Keep within touch and range?

This Life I'm meant to live,
I'm starting to think it's fake.
Because it seems that everyone is fine
That I'm the only one to break.

I'm sitting here and thinking
About the shit we all have gone through.
But what will it be in the end?
Will I lose all of you?

I miss who I was, I miss the old me
But she is long gone, no where to be found.
The girl I have become is now shattered,
Lying cold and lonely upon the ground.

Tears streak down my face,
As I write and sob this out.
It is too late at night,
For me to cry aloud and shout.

Then again, even if I could shout,
Who in this world would hear me?
I'm nothing more then a child, screaming.
And yet I'm left as nothing to be.

They say I'm the strongest,
But look into my soul.
All you will see,
Is a heart made of coal.

These tears, I'm trying to stop,
But the harder I seem to try
Makes everything double
And I continue to cry.

How can I stop
This pain deep inside?
How is it everyone walks around fine,
While my heart seems to die.

With a small, strong urge
I look around for something sharp to cause harm.
Just to dig deep within my pain
And deep into my arm.

I need to watch the blood,
Trickle down my skin, leaving red all the way.
I need it just to tell myself
"It'll all be ok"