My confession

In my dreams i am so happy
but i haven't been happy for so long
the smile has disappeared from my face
I am not sure if it will ever return
if i smile its a fake
my life is a lie, a fake
i am pathetic
i am useless
i am worthless
i don't deserve to live
let me slip away
let me have my final wish
its the way i feel, don't fight it
cut my wrist blacken my eyes
i am sick of my life
i can't take it anymore
i want to leave
i need to leave
no one will miss me
and why should they I'm worthless