Fantasy World of Mine

[Just thoughts...]

Sometimes I feel like running away and creating my own little world. No one is invited in this world. Just myself; secluded and alone. No anger or sadness is allowed. But I am not lonely. Happiness, peace, and serenity are keeping me company. I have no worries in my fantasy land; no thoughts of evildoings of others. I am free to run and jump, sing and shout as loud as I please. And the best part of it all is that I can do it all without having others to look ad judge. I can smile and laugh without someone noticing my imperfect teeth...I can swim in my swimsuit without worrying that someone will notice my imperfect belly. These little bits of freedom make my little world fabulous. Because in the real world, everything has to made into chaos. Everyone has to pass judgment; make everything into a funny little joke...Nothing is taken seriously. In the real world, I feel as if it is impossible to feel happy for more than a split second, because someone always has to ruin that second. You can't help but to feel lonely in the real world because a friend, a real friend, is impossible to find. Family is unreliable. Everyone is so hypocritical in the real world. You have to keep your guard up at all times. Its sort of sad isn't it? It's like you have no time for freedom because in order to have freedom...you cant have judgment. And the world is nothing but a gigantic courtroom, full of judges, passing judgment. Love is an once in a lifetime thing. Once you find it, you have to hold on to it tight, never let it go. Because once its gone, its gone. In this other world of mine, love surrounds me. I feel nothing but love. I just wish that this little fantasy world of mine could sometimes be real...So when I leave it, I wont feel so held captive in this so-called world of freedom, hatred, and judgment....

*PaSsIoNaTe kIsSeS*