Silently Screaming

I never wanted this to get this far
I never planned on it
I thought from the very beginning
I was only lacking a little luck
But now I know it's so much more

Like a train travelling on empty ground
That doesn't ever stop at all
Like a time bomb ticking
Ticking, waiting, ready to explode

My insides are all coiled in a web of dust
Once open wounds that bled in life
Have turned old and pale from time
Loosing all the beads of red

Time pounced on my heart so gently
Erasing the lullabies of familiar voices
That calmed a frantic mind
Now heavy thoughts have taken hold

When did it ever get this bad?
Was I alive? Was I breathing soundly?
As you tore away everything I held onto
Clutched by weakened arms inside my chest
Now I awake to find it empty

I am screaming on the inside
Day by day such a quiet deafening scream
Well it's getting so exhaustingly loud
But no one will ever hear a thing

Hold it in, hold it in
My body aches from the pain
Of wanting this to so desperately spill out
From the enclosed barrier holding it within

I never wanted this to get this far
But it did...