Secrets

The room starts to spin as I slowly fall to floor.
It feels cold as I drift in and out of reality.
Typical day for a girl whos been dead to the core
Now Ill hide what nobody knows
And go on with a secret not to be told
I dont use excuses, dont ask why
Its just a break down, happens all the time
You cant help me, so many have tried
Just let me cry
Let me die
My soul has been beaten and bruised
And Im pretty f u c k i n g confused
Its all shown through drawings and booze
If I smile to much and it seems to fake its because Im trying to forget Im sad
My sanity can get pretty bad, but I like to believe that somewhere Ill find simplicity
All the feelings I used to feel, arent there
For the first time in a long time
I really dont care
Im tired of feeling this way
I never wanted to admit it, it seemed so much easier to lie
And hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry
But people got to me..atleast I can say they tried
It just seems so hard to answer that question
Whats wrong? when nothings right