The Story of my Love Life ( extremely long )

I can still remember when we were still kids,
We started our friendship in such an early age,
We were playmates,
But as I got closer I suddenly felt that you're my soulmate,
It was a puppy love that made me look stupid,
Because when someone told you that I was hit by cupid,
You felt weird and that caused us our friendship...

Since then I can't come near you,
I'd look at you as far away as I can go,
My face I really couldn't show,
You suddenly became snob that was such a blow,
It kind of hurt and I felt so low,
But although you did that to me my feelings still grow,
I can't understand why,
Everytime I see you I feel like I can fly,
When we walk towards each other I feel so shy,
No matter what I do, No matter where I go,
Everything about me is all because of you...

Before I left to Canada,
I wanted to talk to you,
Before I did that,
I drank a lot of beer,
So I won't feel any fear,
I waited inside the multicab,
But you never showed up,
My head was full of thoughts,
It was that time that I really regret,
I thought that was the last time that we'll ever meet,
But fate snuck through and made us meet for the last minute,
And so that was the last time our eyes met...

I left the Philippines with so many questions,
Why did I even tell anyone about my affection?
I didn't even want to have a relation,
We were still young then and all I wanted was your attention,
Why was I stupid enough to ruin something so valuable?
Honestly, everytime I thought about our childhood days,
It makes my heart crumble,
So I made a decision,
Three years from now I'll have my own resurrection,
I'll come back better than ever...

Three years finally passed,
My feelings for you still last,
I came back with a different image,
But still the same person,
When I finally saw you again, seriously, my heart beat so fast,
Whatever it is that is in you,
Makes me so nervous, the little courage I had, suddenly crushed,
As if it was an angel's touch,
You're someone so powerful that my mind & heart clashed...

An awkward moment suddenly passed by,
You suddenly talked to me,
In my mind I was stuttering,
The atmosphere was overwhelming,
But I still unconsciously replied,
I thought my heart died,
In that spur of moment,
I still thank the Lord for the gift he sent...

Meeting you again is beyond my imagination,
I was in a state of suffocation,
You slowly flow through my veins,
Without any pain,
And reached my heart,
A flashback of every memory of you,
Came smothering me in my sleep,
I woke up and my breathing was so deep...

When we went to the beach,
I thought that was just a dream I could never reach,
You jumped on my back when a jellyfish came near,
I felt your bossom on my rear,
It was so funny,
That day was the only time my mind and body,
Was in harmony,
It's amazing how you can make a day,
The best that I can't afford anything to say,
You made me wish that everyday should be that way...

After that memorable experience,
I wrote you a poem about my invisible existence,
My hand just wrote on its own,
Knowing that your presence was the reason,
I wrote how I've always looked at you from afar,
How I've feared to just looked at you straight,
All the things I've felt before,
At that time, it meant something more,
I wanted you to know that I was there,
To try and finish the feelings I want to share...

I passed my poem to my cousin,
Because I know confessing my feelings for you was a sin,
I still had someone,
But in my heart you are still the one,
My poem reached you,
Until now, I don't know,
How you reacted to it,
All I know is that you were impressed,
At that time I made up my mind,
I wanted you to know the feelings I possessed,
There was no stopping me even if it was a crime,
There was no other time...

When you were done reading my poem,
I was outside looking for something to lean,
My cousin told me that you want to thank me in person,
But you never did,
Well you did,
But you wouldn't even say thank you if I didn't brought it up,
I was hoping for a formal way of saying thank you,
It would mean a lot coming from you,
Yet it never came true,
That night made me feel discouraged,
I was in rage,
When my dad called me to go home,
I felt like I was trapped in a cage,
We both went home,
Oh how I felt so alone,
And so I texted my cousin to give you my other 2 poems,
Then my cousin texted me how surprised you were,
I was so happy I couldn't feel any fear,
So I escaped from my house,
And went to my cousin's place,
And there I slept with an unsteady feeling,
I wanted to be a little near you while I'm dreaming...

The sun arises and it's now morning,
Weary and disappointed I was of that evening,
I suddenly had the urge to go swimming,
I told my cousin to invite you whatever it takes,
My cousin tried her best for my sake,
It was still difficult to convince you to go,
My friends and I have been waiting for you,
Feeling so tense,
I was talking a lot of nonsense,
Looking over the fence,
Trying to see if you have decided,
My cousin tried and tried,
And you finally said yes,
I felt so blessed,
OH thank God that was so much stress...

A second time at the beach with you,
A feeling of separation refrains me from talking to you,
You were wearing an invisible shield,
It felt like I'm in the middle of a mine field,
The poems I made my friends gave you,
Has got me cowaring and couldn't get through,
And so I just tried to have fun,
I ran out of confidence to make it done,
Playing with my cousins and friends under the sun,
I watched you from afar again,
I felt the same feeling I had in the past which
casts a shadow in my heart that gives me pain,
A feeling of you going distant from me,
What can I ever do to let you see?
I may not be worthy,
But I just wanted you to know that everything I said is true,
I really like you!

After that somewhat fun time at the beach,
I felt like you will never be reached,
Good thing Ian helped me out,
He planned for us to talk things out,
He told me that you wanted to talk to me,
I was so terrified,
Seeing you I was mortified,
But when you came near me,
I felt comfortable,
In a short moment I was lost in your eyes,
You're just so adorable,
We talked for a while,
It was lovely seeing you smile,
Talking to you face to face,
I become more amazed,
Because you're not just beautiful outside,
But you're more beautiful inside,
I seriously tried myself not to stare into space,
It's too unbelievable looking at such a wonderful face,
Then rain suddenly poured,
We ran inside the tricycle,
Then continued talking for a while,
And then you suddenly decided to go home,
Although I want to resume,
Such a nice conversation...

Note: it's not done... i have to continue writing it.. it's too long that's why.. =]