by Lioness   Jul 1, 2012

I used to find solace
deep within your words
but my mind seems to
have betrayed your love,
even though I tried
so very hard not to.
By no will of my own, my heart was forced to abandon
yours and now all that is left of my soul and existence is
regret and despair. For I was taken over by dark shadows
that engulfed my every being, and I'm living my life filled
with loneliness and
much sorrow. So
Lord, I beg that
you do not
discard what I
threw away so
easily. Please find
it in your heart to
forgive me for
letting go of my
faith even though
I tried so hard not to.


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  • 6 years ago

    by Britt

    Comments from judging:

    Liz blew me away with this shape poem. I was lost in the sorrow of her words and the faith and hope that she had throughout the entire piece. I think a lot of believers feel this way during their relationship with God and to pen it and voice it with such vulnerability is just gorgeous. This part here:

    Lord, I beg that
    you do not
    discard what I
    threw away so

    had me in absolute tears. A poem that quickly went to my favorites folder, and one I feel I will read throughout my own struggles with faith. We all get down sometimes, but turning to Him is going to open doors we can't open ourselves. This poem is beautiful.

  • 6 years ago

    by Karla

    Liz, this piece is powerful. Im speechless.Don't pray if you don't feel to. Talk with your God an ddont forget that divinity lies in you.Namaste.

  • 6 years ago

    by Decayed

    Oh God, Liz. Now you are playing dirty! With dirty I mean that his poem is such a freaking awesome brilliant one, dipped with emotions, no, dripping with emotions. I just adore the shape of it, as a cross, that was a very smart, creative, original method from you. And this shape has just emphasized what I inferred. I just imagined that your faith is now crucified upon this cross. And you just delivered your heart out on it, saying that you lost your faith because your world is now haunted with darkness, misery and melancholy. You nailed this one, literally, with a hammer!

    Beautiful, well-done
    And I know that you are faithful, whatsoever, so just keep holding tightly onto it. Sweet things in your life are yet to come, my friend <3

  • 6 years ago

    by ronel mccarthy

    Sincere poem from the heart..........good form.........well done ;)

  • 6 years ago

    by Hannah Lizette

    Oh, this is beautiful.

    I think we can all relate, we've all done things we aren't proud of and sometimes feel like we aren't worthy of His forgiveness and stray away from Him... but no matter what He is always there and always forgives us when we are ready.

    Great job, this is amazing!

    • 6 years ago

      by Lioness

      Hey guys, I really appreciate your lovely comments on my poem.

      I thought I would just say a little note in case people were wondering what this was about.

      When I used to pray, I used to count my prayers at night - how many I did and if in my mind I didn't do it right, I would start over again. Right now I haven't been praying and I feel like I've been losing my faith because I don't want my prayers to be effected by my ocd like it has, so I have stopped, rather than praying for the wrong reasons.

      I hope this makes a little sense.