Thanks for sharing this Nik. I got emmersed in it straight away and could relate! There was a time in my life when I almost lost myself as it were. It was like I was a book and someone was pulling out the pages,,, one by one, bit by bit.... taking away me! But they didn't get to destroy the whole book. and gradually the pages where written again. And are still being writ. The book is new and has a new cover :)
I found it to be a very curious setting. Like an adventure to save a stolen princess, only along the way, I found out I was the one trapped and needed saving. One thing to remember is that no adventurer ever is alone in their journey.
Reading the poem, I doubt the author needs saving. It seems the author needs to get organized. She is skeptical that her future will tend to be miserable, given that her past and her present seem to be in the rut. She is fearful of the future. But one constructs his/her future by acting, thinking about the potential consequences of the decisions he/she will implement in the present. And that will be the foundation for a secure future. Thus, she cannot be approached by others because she is doubtful of her thoughts. She cannot make up her mind, which renders suggestions from different parties futile.
A bit more of organization and planning, will make a difference.