It's mostly when I am alone at night,
When the going gets tough,
When I'm about to sleep,
When normally your arms would be around me
But all I feel is cold dense air as I silently weep
I know you don't deserve my tears
But I can't help but feel the pain
And the desire to be with you once again
I know it's true
My friends say I'm better off without you
But I can't help but wonder,
Have you ever thought, cared, loved...me
As much as I do,
About you?
Was it all a lie?
Every touch, every kiss, every heart melting hug,
Every memory shared, every private talk, every promise
Was it all a lie?
Turns out,
You lie to lie within your own desires,
Thinking only about yourself this whole time
That is why I cry
Because of the uncertainty,
Continuing to be left in the dark,
Living in the allusion of being loved,
While ending up alone
I know I don't deserve the pain
And now that time has past since we've been done,
I feel as though the battle has been won
But even the bravest soldiers have a few cracks
And out of mine I secretly leak twice as hard
For I know you never once shed a tear for me
Secretly in my sleep,
I cry for the both of us
Even though it's you who deserves to bear the burden,
I will labor through your lame accusation of blame
For it's those who harbor the fall,
That will one day gain the greatest love of all
