Bastard child - The slam edition

by Yakari Gabriel   Mar 29, 2016


1. The first time I told him I didn't want him he said I had daddy issues.
well even my issues have issues
but my father let too many years pass between phone calls so at least I can say he was telling the truth.

2.he said that women like me, play hard to get but are easy to sleep with.
No Kanye West but he swore I was a golddigger, he told me his penis was big, I said great but my dreams are bigger....

3. The last time a man touched me,
he asked if I came..women are conditioned to feed egos and I am not one to hurt people so I said yes...

But after that night,
I learned that there was no pleasure in faking it

So I, I came indeed,
I came clean of the shame I used to feel
for not wanting anyone to love me
I regret that

I came to make peace with a body I once hated more than anything else in the world

Yes, I came and I came
cause I never forget to come, but i often forget to leave and my heart became an SD card that carries too many memories,
got so many stories that bite and I don't wanna slow down no system

I use to think that my double d's would
always mean I could get what I wanted..
and I wanted ...
I wanted to come alright...

come to terms with my own existence
come to forgive my dad for cheating on his wife, for reducing the woman who raised me alone to a side chick
for making my mama just another
woman who fell in love with somebody who already had somebody else..

...I look into the blue eyes of my father's wife, I look into the green ones of my mother ... I look into the coffee brown of my own...how the only thing these three eyes have in common is that they know
what liars men can be..

and I remember that I am the walking manifestation of cheating, the blueprint and the proof...that once upon a time a man forgot his wedding ring and a woman forgot her morals...

Are you coming?
He asks me for the last time, and I say yes...
I am coming for everything no one thinks a bastard child should have..

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  • 8 months ago

    by PETER EDWARDS

    A thought provoking poem Yakari, full of raw emotion and pain. A good write.

  • 1 year ago

    by - Mr. Darcy

    Hello,

    This is a wonderful piece of slam poetry. It is inspiring and touches all the right parts in all the right places.

    Take care,

    Michael

  • 1 year ago

    by Em

    Yakari,

    This piece is so full of raw emotion. It's inspiring to the reader.
    It's factual of how this is happening to many other women and men around the world, distance between fathers and mothers alike and the pain the people it's happening to feel.

    I feel this is written well be wise the emotion you feel inside has turned you around.

    Take care, Em.

  • 1 year ago

    by J Nair

    Dear Yakari,

    I believe your poems heal you! and inspires others.

    The words in the poem so strongly reinstates the fact that how someone's casual outlook at life becomes lifetime's pain for those who are at the receiving end of such a raw deal.

    You have turned your pain into your strength.
    Best wishes to a brave soul.

    Jay.

  • 1 year ago

    by Brenda

    Your first one was awesome, this one, even better. So much hurt coming from these words. A very telling write about infidelity and the fall out from it.

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