Confidence / Betrayal (Cheating Lips)

She holds his hand in
Confidence.
He holds her hand in
Betrayal.

She does not know the
Truth.
He can only think of the
Lies.

She is
Faithful.
He is
Unfaithful.

She holds his hand tightly,
leans into him
feeling the warmth soothe her.
He breathes heavily,
his body stiff and rigid,
his saunter awkward,
his mind guilty.
He knows
The Truth.
He fears
The Truth.
He dreads
The Truth.
The truth won't set him free;
it will
break
him
apart.

She loves him in
Confidence.
He loves her in
Bigamy.

She dreams of his calm face,
his lips slowly caressing her own;
his fingers softly touching her skin.
He has nightmares of the day
when she finds out
The Truth,
and learns that
He
is
a
Lie.

All eyes are on
Him,
as the two walk down the hallway.
(Do they know?)
(Will they tell?)

He wants to
tell her...
--So Bad-- but he knows full well that
He Won't.

It was impulse;
a one second, foundation-less urge.
Had he known how he would
feel
about it afterward,
he surely wouldn't have done...
it...
with... 'her' ... and not...
Her.

Now the love is in
jeopardy.

She calls him.
He holds the phone in his hand
and lets it
ring...
The ringing verberates
through the room.
If he answers,
it's just another
false
"I Love You"
spoken through his
Cheating Lips.
If he doesn't,
it just causes
more
unanswerable
questions.

Upon impulse,
he opens up the phone
and screams,
Guilt using him
as a mannequin to speak through,
"I CHEATED ON YOU
but
no
matter
what,
I
STILL
LOVE
YOU."

He can hear heavy breathing
on the receiving end.
He says,
"I'm sorry,
I
don't
know
what
I
was
Thinking..."

She remains silent,
her rapid, heavy breath
the only representation of her
existence.

She loved him in
Innocence.
He loved her in
Confusion.

She handed him
Trust,
and received
Bigamy
and
Insecurity
in return.

Am I not
good
enough?
She thinks.
So I deserve to be
Betrayed?
Am I worthless?

She hates
The Truth.
She dreads
The Lies.
She hoped
For Eternity.
And just got
One Night.

She does not know what to
say.
She does not know what to
do.
She doesn't know how to
react.

Does she
yell?
Does she
cry?
Does she let it
eat
at her
inside
--and pretend it's okay?

Does she let it
slide?
--Just let it go?
Just make herself
forget?

~

She loved him in
Confidence.
He loved her in
Betrayal.

She will not
forgive
him.
He will not
forget
her.

~