Just wanna be happy

by Nelle

I sit and wonder what i have done so wrong to deserve all of this...
i wonder why cant i be the happy girl i used to..
my life is destroyed because i have nothing...
i sit and wonder if someone will ever come home one day and find me dead in my floor just because I'm lost in my own body
all the things i lived for have drifted away...
all that i loved is gone
why is it that all i think about is killing myself?
why is it that only drugs and cutting helps me be happy!
i wonder if i really have the guts to end my life..
to be out of this world forever?
i wonder if i could ever be happy again...
i just wanna feel, feel anything at all
I'm tired of being numb less to the world
it hurts to think that i have to keep cutting and cutting just feel even the little bit of anything...
will it ever be over? will i ever feel again?

Kay this is horrible..i know that but this is the first poem i have ever ever written...so what else do you expect but for it to be bad? but really this is how i feel..i just wanna be happy? is that too much to ask for!!


Submission date : 2006-01-18

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Fate at 2006-02-20

This is soooo sad. you know i read your profile. you should stop. i have many reasons why, but lets get back to ur poem. its sad and i feel bad. i hope you feel better soon.

Alison at 2006-02-24

I love it. You were able to express yourself truthfully. I love it. 10 thumbs up hunn.

Mr.Blueknight ( F C D ) at 2006-05-09

Your poems are all like a deep blue ocean that no one can get through it. you are very very great person nelle

Mr.Blueknight ( F C D ) at 2006-05-09

Elow to your self

Mr.Blueknight ( F C D ) at 2006-05-09

Be glad cause god give you a good heart for sure you are

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