Your Sad Journey

The first time I met you
I didn't know how to be,
Had visions in my mind
Of what I might see.

But to my surprise
You looked perfectly fine,
Healthy and happy
With a beautiful smile.

But behind your smile
Hid your inner fears,
Ones I sadly come to learn
Over the years.

At 26, your battle began
Then i wasn't around,
Diagnosed with cancer
When a lump in your breast was found.

Not knowing anyone with cancer
I didn't realize it's deadly effects,
And seeing you living life happily
Any fear of death you would never detect.

You didn't mind talking about your cancer
Nothing ever seem to faze you,
Even whilst having grueling chemo
You worked all the way through.

Before our holiday in turkey
You found a small lump in your neck,
An operation was needed to remove it
And they carried out a biopsy test.

An agonizing wait you had
But on holiday we had so much fun,
It was nice to see you smile
Laughing, joking and soaking up the sun.

On our return we would discover
The results of the biopsy test,
Unfortunately the results showed it was cancerous
Numb, what could be said.

You took the news like a hero
Even though inside you must of felt numb,
Because it hadn't only returned
It had now spread to your lungs.

Adamant in winning your fight
You battled on and kept up the pace,
Unaware of its deadly intentions
It had already found it's next hiding place.

You started to get bad headaches
Terrible migraines, it was horrible for you,
We all put it down to the treatment
But i know in your heart you knew.

Sadly your fears were confirmed
A scan showed tumors on your brain,
When you came round to break the news
It was heartbreaking to see you knocked down again.

You still battled on with a smile
Determined not to give up yet,
How did you have so much strength?
This is something i will never forget.

Your awful headaches continued
Even after the treatment was done,
You had now suffered to terrible fits
What was going on?

You went back to the hospital
A treatment was offered, Gamer Knife
Reading up on it made me confident
This would give you back your life.

But not long after the treatment
You deteriorated rapidly, to hospital you went,
Little did we know at the time
That's where the last weeks of your life would be spent.

It had totally taken over your body
Now a matter of days rather than weeks,
Amongst the pain i remember thinking
At least now you can finally be free.

That dreaded day finally came around
It was so overwhelmingly sad
You left peacefully as you lied in your bed
Steve beside you holding your hand.

I will never forget what you went through
You amazed me the strength you displayed,
You were and still are my inspiration
And i miss you everyday.