The pain of loneliness

Watching couples walk the streets
his arm around her shoulders
and hers around his waist,
watching them smile and laugh together
so clearly in love that they shine.

Sighing inwardly and smiling sadly,
I watch them walk slowly past me
and think of the man I love,
wishing with all my heart that was us
and we weren't so far apart.

The cold empty nights hugging myself
and wishing it was him I was holding,
hating the fact that I'm always alone,
going everywhere singularly and hating it
but knowing its worth it all.

I hate being alone and lonely
when all I want is to be held,
remembering the sound of his voice or laughter,
how he says my name and "I love you"
and I know I'm willing to wait.

Much as I hate how things are right now
I wouldn't choose anything else,
I'm happier with him then I've ever been
and can't see myself with anyone else
but...dang this is harder then I expected :P

I've waited this long for him
and I'll wait even longer for him if I have to
but sometimes it's enough to make me cry,
what I wouldn't give to be held
and feel safe and sure for a while.

This is the choice that I've chosen,
whether people support it or not
and he is the man I want for life
but this is slowly driving me crazy,
I can only imagine what he feels.

I guess I'll just close my eyes again
and hold tight to the plans we have
that help get me through the day
and wait till I can talk to him again tonight,
the highlight of my every day,

I love you sweetie with all my heart
and someday you'll come to see
that theres no where else I'd rather be
or anyone else that would do,
you have my heart for life.