Some mad hope

When I was a bit younger,
you seemed to pay more attention.
You use to say you loved me,
but now its to hard for you to mention.

I don't understand what I did wrong?
I tried so hard everyday to make you proud.
I did my chores, kept my room clean.
Now all you say is "shush! you are being to loud."

Where did I go wrong?
Just tell me, what did I do?
Was it the sports I chose?
Did I not always say thank you?

I tried for so long to fix this,
but you didn't want to try.
I can't fix it myself!
Why wont you help me? Why...

I wanted a mama I could run to
with all her high school drama,
so you could help me figure it out.
I can't believe I still call you mama..

Daddy says this is just the way you are,
but I know its something much deeper.
...Do you just not love me?
I mean you couldn't treat me any cheaper...

All i wanted was the mom to go shopping with.
You could help me pick out all my clothes,
and we could talk about all the problems in life.
You could tell me which is cuter, these or those?

I guess its too late to fix any of this.
My heart feels too broken,
and you ignore me now.
In weeks we haven't spoken...

Just know this was your choice.
I didn't want it to be this way.
I tried so hard each and every day.
Every night all I would do is pray.

I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted.
I'm sorry I didn't meet your expectations.
I'm sorry that you didn't and still don't love me.
I'm sorry that there were too many complications.

Even though I know the past very well
there is this never ending hope in my heart,
that maybe one day you will come around
and maybe, just maybe, a new relationship can start...

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