Without You

Remember when we were best friends?
We could do anything together,
That lasted for a decade,
Even after you moved.

Then we fought over a boy,
How could we do that?
It felt like whenever you came to visit,
It was to see him.

Did you know that I hated that?
I don't think Ive felt worse about myself,
Than when you were with him,
Instead of me.

You should have realized something,
He didn't like girls,
Yet, you were still obsessed,
Way to throw away a friendship.

One night you were going to meet my new friends,
You were so excited to come up,
Of course that was a lie,
You ditched me to hang out with him!

I was worried out of my mind!
All you did was sit in the parking lot with him!
Do you know how much you hurt me?
That was the first time you made me cry.

I knew then that we were growing apart,
You shattered the last of our withering relationship,
I came down to visit you and see a play,
Your ex-boyfriend was there.

He also happened to be one of my best friends,
But apparently I flirt with every guy I meet,
I am heartless, as you said,
At least thats what you told your mother so she would call mine and forbid me to talk to you.

When friends fight, they fix it,
But not you.
You're too good for that.

After I apologized,
which was a horrible mistake,
You walked all over my feelings,
And every time we spoke, I hated myself.

So you'll never be my best friend again,
You ruined my trust for people,
I still worry about you,
But you don't need me anymore.

Old friend, I miss you sometimes,
Or should I say, the way you used to be,
But I thank you for changing me,
I'm a better person because of you,

I'm stronger and smarter,
I love people, but not all at once,
I am reserved but I am a friend,
Unlike some people I know.

When you go on to a life full of drama,
Because thats what you do best,
Remember the girl you crushed in your path,
And know I lived my way.
Without you.