Where I Stand

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Once on the outside looking in
wishing i was there
Once on the inside looking out
wishing that life was fair

Missing the memories
i wish to erase
never seeming to forget
that one certain face

My trust, my hope, my dignity,
once standing right in place
my faults,my slips and my mistakes
made me fall from my grace

my heart unarmored,
and insecure
all the things i once knew
making me feel unsure

changing the the way
i thought things were
confusion, malfunctions,
every things a blur

don't know who i am
don't know where I'm going
so warped and twisted
pulled away from all knowing

a million different directions
all completely diverse
never making a decision
its become my only curse

not knowing what i want
not getting what i hoped for
changing all the things
i once thought i adored

wanting to change back
to the way things used to be
when how things used to happen
wouldn't really matter to me

but everything eventually changes
sometimes you have no choice
you just have to learn to deal
and find things that make you rejoice.

you may have regrets
and want to go back in time
you may wish that
you could of seen the sign

theres so many things that i should have done
but i acted on a simple thought
and the actions i barely thought about
are the ones that won.

so here i am.
this is where i stand
a huge mistake that can't be changed
a huge lesson that i learned first hand.