It Comes Back

The feeling of discouragement.
Wanting someone with you.
but wanting to be alone.
Trying to hold back your tears.
but they keep coming
running down your cheeks
all the hidden emotions
all the buried hatred.
Your thoughts come to the service.
you think that theres nothing left of you.
You want it to go away.
thinking that you felt like this just yesterday.
but thats how it is.
you go through this pain...
trying to figure out who you really are.
and stopping yourself from becomings someone your not.
you see your friends slipping away
your feel your family turn their backs on you.
eventually you teach your mind to ignore the feelings you have.
and your happy once again.
but just as fast as every things became better...
bam...
it comes back..