My Story of Rape...

Innocently gullible to believe.
Giving out my trust like it was Halloween.

Partying out with a friend.
but my mistake was
not knowing anyone but him.

A few to many shots.
and a bottle of Captain empty.
i have to find the bathroom.
"Can anyone help me?"

Luckily someone,
not as gone as me
came to my rescue
he was as sweet as could be

led me out the shed
and started to help me walk.
ended up on the side of the barn
we didn't even talk.

not knowing what was happening.
i started to unzip my fly
next thing you know he pushes me
i fell to the ground and had no clue why.

i try to get up but he holds me down
takes off his pants
i know whats happening now.
i try to scream but nothing comes out.

silent on the outside, but inside all i can do is shout
i try to fight back,
but he is to strong,
hit after hit.
what did i do wrong.

tears rolling down my face,
squirming to escape.
how could this of all things
be my fate.

hurting and crying,
every things a blur
don't remember his face
could barely see him when this occured.

i hear my friend yell
calling out my name
but still i couldn't speak.
there was just to much pain.

the guy hears it too
so he gets off me quickly.
my friend walks over
asking what happened to me.

"She just fell down crying,
i don't know why"
how could that f u c k e r just do that and lie.

laying there crying
watching my friend believe that guy.
so afraid and hurt.
i thought i might die.

not telling anyone.
how my night went.
crying every night.
was my only way to vent.

trying to take in
everything that happened.
what occurred is hard for me to comprehend

that night replays over and over
in my mind each day
i wish that i could just forget.
maybe i can or will someday.

not knowing who did this.
and put me through this misery.
praying for God to take it back,
but he won't, not matter how much i plea

this is my story,
my story of rape.
don't let it happen to you.
believe me, after it happens,

...theres nothing you can do