Trust

Don't tell me you understand if you know you don't,
Don't tell me you'll tell the truth if you know you won't.
All those times I opened up, I almost died,
I can't believe you did this, I can't believe you lied.

I don't think you know how difficult it is for me to trust,
And that I only open my heart and mind when I think I must.
I thought you understood how fragile I am, how easily I break,
And now you tell me all we had, it was all a fake?

All those times I couldn't sleep, worrying about your tears and despair,
You treating me this way isn't right, it isn't fair.
You are angry and hurt because I never called,
But you were the one who didn't tell, you were the one that stalled.

I put my faith in our friendship, cause I thought I found something true,
I believed you blindly when you spoke, I believed in you.
I spoke word I had sworn on my death never to say,
I gave you my trust and you threw it away.

This was the last drop I needed to break my heart,
I thought you knew how close I was to fall apart?
All those times I wondered if you were alright,
You have me the impression that you had the strength to fight.

I thought I knew you for real,
What you thought and what you feel.
But now, I don't even know what's true,
I don't understand, who the hell are you?

I never thought you had so much hate,
Now you've ripped away my last bit of faith.
I never thought you'd be what you have become,
Now, you're the proof that I can't trust anyone.

I don't think you realize, you make me feel like shit,
Why did you accept my love and friendship if you never wanted it?
You knew I was difficult because I told what was true,
When you lied, how was I supposed to know what's bothering you?

In my quest for reasons to trust my friends, I fail,
Because I fell for all the lies, I fell for the betrayal.
But don't worry, it's my own fault I thought you were my best friend,
It is my own fault I'm abandoned and alone - once again.