I Still...

I still wonder
why you left me here
all alone
to wipe away my tears

I still miss you
more then i can say
i don't understand
why you went away

I still wake up screaming
after seeing your face
lifeless and pale
alone in this place

I still close my eyes
and wish you'd come back
so i could keep u
from going down that track

I still hate myself
bcuz i am to blame
i try to forget about u
but things just aren't the same

I still cry myself
to sleep at night
thinking about you
and how you lost the fight

And still I'm haunted
by visions of you
i wish it never happened
i wish it wasn't true

And now i start to wonder
did anyone care?
it was one whole day
before they found you there

Motionless in a pool of blood
laying in your bed
all i have left now
is memories in my head

How much pain
did you feel
as you slit your wrists
did you think it wasn't real?

Did you think it wouldn't bleed?
as the knife cut in2 ur skin
and now do u feel
regret deep within

I still wish you
would wake up again
you always said
we'd be friends till the end

But now your gone
you left me here
all alone
with just my fears