Long nights

You say you're doing this all for us, all for me
Well I'm trying to do the same, I've left my family

I left everything I knew the blink of an eye
I felt numb and held everything in and wouldn't cry

And now I'm here feeling useless and no good
Taking crap from people everyday on doing things they think I should

I lay in bed not being able to move
Beating myself up over things that I can't prove

You ask me to try and help and work with you
What do think that I've really been trying to do

I sit and tell myself that love, it really is enough
But I'm still walking down this road that's so rough

Mind that wont stop that won't stop going
Thoughts about everything that just keep flowing

And now my mind is black and blue from all this self-abuse
So I'll hang my head in shame now and tie it in this noose