I Lay Down Tonight && Wake In The Morning

As I lay down tonight on my soaking wet pillow,
Tears will still fall, for my heart's a weeping willow.
As I lay down tonight to meet you in my dreams,
I'll try not to get lost in my begging screams.

As I lay down tonight to met you in my mind,
I'll try not to forget that I can't turn back time.
As I lay down tonight to tell you how I feel,
I'll try not to remember that my nightmare's are real.

As I lay down tonight to hear you say you're sorry,
I'll try not to think of nights when the sky was so starry.
As I lay down tonight to see some of your tears fall,
I'll try not to remember that you don't cry at all.

As I lay down tonight, my lips you will kiss,
And I know I'll remember how much that is missed.
As I lay down tonight to feel your sweet embrace,
I know I'll remember how sweet you really taste.

As I lay down tonight I know you'll walk away.
I won't lie to myself and say that I'm okay.
As I lay down tonight and follow you as you go,
I'll remember that you left and there is no hope.

As I lay down tonight to fall to my knees and pray,
I'll ask God to please send you back to me some day.
As I lay down tonight, you'll break my heart once more,
Because deep down I know, you don't love me anymore.

And I'll wake up in the morning with tearstains on my face,
Remembering how much I miss the feeling of your embrace,
And my eyes will start to water, for you I truly miss,
Remembering the gentle touch of your lips kiss.

And I'll wake up in the morning to another day of sorrow,
Remembering your not here today and won't be tomorrow,
And my tears will fall and glisten in the light,
As my heart shatters for I know I've lost the fight.

And I'll wake up in the morning and look in the mirror,
To face the truth that I'm why you're not here.
And I'll wipe away the tears and take a shallow breath,
As your voice haunts me with every "I love you" said.

And I'll wake up in the morning to face reality's fate,
Knowing deep in my heart that it's really too late.
I'll catch my breath and hold it inside,
Watching my tears as they fall from my eyes.

And I'll wake up in the morning and lay down that night,
At least in my dreams you still hold me tight.
If only for a moment, that illusion in my mind,
I hold you for a second and you're still mine.

-Copyright-Amber Palmer

((Based on a reoccurring that I keep having about me && my ex-Ethan Wade Messick))