Suffering.

I want to cry for you,
but there are no tears to shad.
I want to die for you,
that thought i do not dread.

I'm not afraid of dieing,
nor suffering, nor pain.
I do not care if I am normal,
not even if I'm insane.

I'm not afraid of burning,
I'm not afraid to drown.
I dint care if someone smiles,
or if they have a frown.

I'm not afraid of bleeding,
or being stabbed in the heart.
But if th knife is yours,
it will tear me apart.

I am afraid of spiders,
I am afraid of heights.
I am afraid of bullies,
and when I'm in a fight.

I am afraid of loosing you,
I'm afraid when you have to go.
I am afraid of cancer,
and knowing I'm dieing slow.

I cant bear the thought of you dieing,
and loosing someone I love.
I'm afraid of my own sanity,
thats what I'm dieing of.

So is it sane to love with a broken heart?
or to be afraid of your childish fears?
Caring for someone you dint like?
and being scared for years?

These fears wont leave me alone,
these questions keep running through my head.
They will never leave me,
until the day I'm dead.

So give me a reason,
why I shouldn't die now.
To get rid of my misery,
I didn't need to know how.

The only thing thats stopping me,
is your face haunting my soul.
I know that if I do a wrong,
you will take full control.

So when your around I'm not scared,
because I'm safe near you.
So dint ever leave me,
and my skies will stay blue.

So if I'm having a bad day,
you know exactly what I'm thinking.
Just smile and give me a hug,
and my world will keep on spinning.