The big difference between forgetting and forgiving

Now adays I ask myself ,what did I ever see in you that made me love you??!!was it the stiff way in which u dealt with me??or was it the tough way which you thought it would be the best that I could receive?!

I just keep wondering,why did u always made me feel that you are punishing me for loving you!!!!
Its like I've made a huge mistake to only think for a second that you deserved my love and attention and even patience.

I wonder why did you seem soo right back then in my eyes.and I made excuses for everything you ever said and done to me.
I just hate the way I was damn in love with you,with a pathetic person,who I know now that he didnt deserve .

I was lost with you and I didnt notice it.
I hate the way you made me feel,unrespected,undeserved and unimportant,I just have many good memories of you but lots and many more bad ones.
I keep on trying to forget and forgive,well,I'll forgive cause I wont live with grudges,but I promise you that I'll never forget...how much u hurt me