Still controls

I thought once tht giving you up and letting u go,would just set me free,i thought that once you've gone,i'll be independent.

well,tht is simply a bit true,no controls and no strict yes's and no's.
i really do live my life the way i think i see it for myself.

i never lied when i said tht being selfish with me,made me love myslef even more,not only tht,and also u can say its almost the most thing that made me think of moving on.

after the time we mentioned letting go of eachother,i struggled alot,getting adapted to my new life without you.

maybe it was a mistake,letting u go and even be once with u.
but im sure of one thing,it was never fully my mistake,i loved you and tht's all what i've ever done and i dont think loving u was for a while a mistake.

but what hurts me most,tht whenever i feel kind of lonely,i keep remembering all the good times,and memories keep coming back and i guess its just inorder 2 torture me.

i may have learned how 2 live by my own,and started moving on,but every now and then,i just long for u,long for ur existence in my life,long for being yours once more.

when i remember you,with tears in my eyes and a smile on my face,drowning in thoughts of u,,yet u r far away,ur memory still controls..