Everything is oh so worng

Here i am sitting asking myself why? why dont you love me?
Why do you love her... cant you see she doest care about you?
Cant you see she doesn't love you as much as i do?
Why? not i am falling apart and you are the only one who could possibly fix me, but it might be to late. It hurts all of it hurts... the crying myself to sleep. the faking a smile when I'm around you, the making people think everything is geart when it isn't, but what hurts the most is watching you kiss her in front of me.
You don't know it but i am suicidal for your love, but none of that matters to you because you will never know.
You will never I can't open up to you because I'm afraid. afraid you won't care.
Afraid of making a fool of myself.
Afraid of getting hurt. I wake up every day to the same sadness and its all because you see me as nothing more then a friend. I don't know how much more of this i can take.
I'm sick of pretending everything is okay when it isn't.
I must be a good liar you and everybody else haven't found out that I'm not doing to well.
I need someone to rescue mt to save me, But I'm positive that you are the only person who cloud rescue me.
Every time i think about you being with her, my heart starts to separate, but you don't know it because i just fake a smile and pretend that everything is okay. even though everything is oh so wrong