Remember and smile

I lay here on the pavement
With a joint lit in my hand
Thinking about how my life
Feels like pounding on sand

I stare up at the stars
Knowing my friends are smiling down
I know if they were still here
They wouldn't want me to frown

Life gets so hard
And I do the best i can
Everyday I do something
That makes me more of a man

I've come a long way
But I still have so far to go
I do my best to make do
But now I just don't know

My past stares me in they eyes
Knowing I shake in fear
Hoping that those images in my mind
Will simply disappear

Every turn I make
Stands a bad choice I once made
Life is so close to death but thats how it is
When you live in Miami-Dade

I make friends when I can
And mourn the ones I've lost
They pay the price everyday
Regardless of the cost

Here I stand in the cemetery
Surrounded by stones of Grey
I want you guys to know
I think about you every single day

So as I stare at the stars
I feel my mind fall off track
Then I see the stars twinkle
And I know your smiling back

But why does life have to be so rough
How much more can I really take
This is how it must feel
When your surrounded by your mistakes

I learn with every step I take
I still remember and smile
Because the memory of you all
Is enough to make life worth while