Suicide Note

She will hide all her thoughts, never let anyone inside,
She will build those walls up, and behind them she will hide.
She will smile when they see her, reply I am Fine if they ask,
They will never know the truth because her smile will be her mask.

She will try her very best, to convince them she is fine,
They will never know, when she steps over the line,
The only way they will know, is the night she cuts too deep,
After writing her suicide letter, she will never wake from her sleep.

Will it be a shock? Will anyone care?
They never knew she did not want to be here.
They will never know how much she had to doubt,
They will never know, until the day she finally gets out.

The depression had left her barricaded; she did not know what to believe,
If she told them how she felt, would they turn and leave?
If she could fake a smile, then what could they do?
Pretend to be there and help her get through.

She never believed they wanted to be there,
She never thought that they should have cared,
She felt so confused, and she did not want to be needed,
But now she wont have to worry, because she finally succeeded.

Her body was lying, behind the closed door.
Her suicide note, was left on the floor,
It started with, "I am sorry but I cannot take this anymore
Now you will never know what I had to endure.

I know it may sound stupid, but I cannot go on,
It is way too much, and I cannot stay strong.
The scars you will see, were the relief of my pain,
And I know it was stupid, and there was nothing to gain.

But my knife is my best friend; it is all that I need,
To finally let go, I will finish my deed.
Do not think I did this to hurt you; I failed at this game,
It was not your fault; I am the only one to blame.

I am sorry, but this is it, my final goodbye,
I did not mean to hurt you, so please do not cry.
I did not belong here, so please just forget.
Cause my suicide, I will never regret"