No Going Back

AS I start to fall,
I remember again.
My costly sin,
That no one saw.

Three years ago,
I left everyone,
And started to run,
And I have nothing to show.

Left my friends and home.
In search of a new life,
But only found strife
Now all alone.

I want to return,
But I can't go,
Cause I know ,
The memories of me are burned.

I ruined several lives,
And I'm in regret,
But no matter how much I sweat,
I'll never recover those ties.

I hit the ground.
And close my eyes,
As I start to cry,
Without making a sound.

But there's no going back,
So I stand back up.
As my emotion erupt,
As I realize a new fact.

The fact that this.
This is my new life.
So I pick up the knife,
Then throw it down and continue this wish.