Blame It On The Alcohol...

by lovemehateme   Oct 4, 2009


Sitting here with a bottle in my hand, wondering when this pain I feel will ever come to an end.

These thoughts of you are crowding my mind, and theirs voices telling me of how I wrong I was for leaving you behind.

I can't stop the voices for their overpowering my brain, telling me all I did wrong, now I feel such ashame.

I left the most important person behind in my life and now he's probably gone forever, im taking drink after drink trying to pull myself together.

Drinking so much Im starting to feel numb, tameing the demon that everyone says ive become.

Bottle after bottle knowing it could be my last, I ignore my feelings and my heart starts beating fast.

Starring at all the broken bottles lying there on the floor, knowing thats not all of the alcohol I have I stumble to get more.

Wishing he would take me back and forget the hell that we've been through, I shed a tear here and there for all I think about is you.

I miss the things we do together for your the one I adore, you'd think after all this id leave but yet I keep running back for more.

How you used to hold me, your hugs I dearly miss, and how you wanted to always see me, for being around you I can't resist.

And how you told me you loved me when I would least expect it, or how you used to say goodnight before you went to bed, I dream these things will happen again but im starting to give up and wish I was dead.

Alcohol running through my viens I feel as if im about to faint, I fall landing on a peice of glass, on the cold floor I use my blood and a suicide note I start to paint.

It says, "im sorry I hurt you like I did but I guess this is how it has to be, how much I loved you now you'll never see. Goodbye forever... ill miss you baby."

[[Should I add more to it or leave as is?]]

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  • 14 years ago

    by Saving Grace

    Love it, i think you should leave it as it is. It's a great write. You spoke from the heart which is really great. I liked it. 5/5

  • 14 years ago

    by AJ Irving

    Nice i love it keep writing and never stop

  • 14 years ago

    by SolemnWish

    Its perfect as is. it speaks to me, 5/5

  • 14 years ago

    by Second to None

    Wow this is perfect i think you should leave it just how it is. :D

  • 14 years ago

    by xxxGrimmxxx

    Love your poem you always speak from the heart which makes an excellent poem.....