Help

I can't describe it,
Feelings into words.
Descriptions just deter,
How I am feeling.

Fear is constantly there.
Love gone for too long;
Is that right or wrong.
I can't tell anymore.

I fall down again.
I can't get up on my feet
Sadness weighs down as concrete,
Crushing my heart to ash.

Thoughts are so killing,
Memories of betraying friends
In my memory is brand.
Just take them all away.

Help I hope is there.
I'm crying in my misery
Death my answer is decreed.
I reject it feeling to low for death.

All this wasted time,
Trying to make something work.
Only failure lurks
Should have known.

All along I was wrong.
There's no one there,
And so this tare
Is rendered unfix able.

So my call for help,
Ignored and useless.
I'm suspended in the air loosely,
So I'll die here broken.